March 14, 2007 was one of the worst days of my life. A year ago today, we had the final u/s that would change our lives forever.
I had been on bed rest since Feb. 28, hoping and praying that some amniotic fluid would appear around our daughter and she would grow a little bit, and we might make it to the magical 26 week mark that the doctor's talked about. Sadly, at 24w5d we went in for a growth u/s and discovered that our baby's heart had stopped beating.
I have been reliving a lot of the feelings that I felt during that time. Its so hard to feel like you didn't fight hard enough for your baby. I ask myself a million times why I didn't fight so hard to get into the hospital and have 24/7 monitoring.
We will never know if it would have made a difference.
I do know that next time I will fight with every ounce I have in my body for the life of my baby. I just hope I have that chance again.
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