Hello 2008. I’m do glad you are here. Screw you 2007.

With the New Year, I’ve decided I need to start blogging as a way to get out all my feelings. So here it goes…….

So who am I, where have I been, and where am I going?

2007 was the worst year of my life. Sounds dramatic, huh? Well I was pregnant three times and I lost three babies in that time frame. We had a daughter that was stillborn on March 21, 2007. We found out on March 14 that her heart had stopped beating at 24 weeks 5 day. Our little girl had IUGR and no amniotic fluid because of two blood disorders I have – heterozygous Factor V Leiden and heterozygous MTHFR. (I will rant about blood disorders another day). I didn’t find out I had the blood disorders until she was already in distress at 22 weeks.

I got pg again quickly, but unfortunately it was a blighted ovum. So I had all the pregnancy symptoms, but on the u/s the sac showed no baby, pretty cruel huh? I choose to have surgery to remove the pregnancy because I needed to move on. Well we weren’t so careful and I got PG again (seriously - I know). I found out Sept. 10. I went to the dr. and found out I was 6 weeks pregnant. Unfortunately that little baby girl was lost on Oct. 17, 2007. I again had surgery and through genetic testing they were able to determine it was another little girl and she had Turner’s Syndrome – so she was missing a sex chromosome (45X instead of 46XX)

2008 is a year full of new possibilities. M and I are theoretically trying again to have a baby. He wants to get PG and have the baby all in one year. He likes even number years better then odd. We got married in 2004. He had a good year work wise in 2006. His logic doesn’t always work with me, but its very sweet. Today, I want to get PG again, but I’m not going to guarantee what I feel like tomorrow. I am using the CBEFM again. Every morning he asks “What’s the stick say?” We’re waiting for a high reading.

So what am I doing different to treat the blood disorders? The common, never agreed upon by doctor’s treatment – blood thinners. I am currently taking baby aspirin everyday. When I get a +HPT, I will begin my lovenox shots. My new MFS said I am going to is putting me on 40 mg/ 1 day.

I’m also going to use this blog to show ways I remember the babies and try to incorporate them into my daily life. I promise I'll learn how to upload pictures soon. M’s work bought it for us in a local park by the house. I love that it is placed in front of a playground – so Addy can watch over all the other kids.